A lot of us are in a strange place right now. Some feel betrayed. Some feel confused. Some feel tired and numb. Some feel angry, and they do not know what to do with that anger. Some are still all in, still defending everything, still suspicious of anyone who raises concerns. Others have quietly stepped back and do not even have words for why. They just know something inside them is shutting down.
If that is you, I want you to hear me. You are not alone. And asking questions does not make you a traitor. It makes you honest.
Something Is Off
In parts of the charismatic movement, especially in the big platform spaces, the Kingdom of God language is still there, but the way things function is starting to look like empire.
That word empire matters. It is not just a strong word to get attention. It describes a pattern.
Empire is when the ministry becomes the center. Kingdom is when Jesus is the center.
Empire is when protecting the brand becomes more important than protecting people. Kingdom is when the flock matters more than the platform.
Empire is when power gathers at the top and stays there. Kingdom is when leadership is servant hearted, accountable, and close enough to people to actually be known.
Empire is when money, influence, access, and expansion quietly become the measure of success. Kingdom is when faithfulness, holiness, love, truth, and spiritual fruit matter more than numbers.
I am not saying every charismatic church is like this. I am not saying the gifts are fake. I am not saying the Holy Spirit is not moving. I am saying we have allowed things to grow that do not look like Jesus, and we keep calling it Kingdom because it happens in church settings with worship music and Bible verses.
Jesus is not fooled by settings. Jesus looks at fruit. He looks at motives. He looks at who gets protected. He looks at who gets sacrificed. He looks at who is heard. He looks at who is silenced.
And the truth is, this season has exposed a lot. There have been multiple public controversies and conversations about misconduct, abuse of power, and institutional silence in parts of the charismatic world, including the language of cover up culture and questions about whether real accountability will follow public statements.
I am not here to relive every headline. I am not here to name names. I am here to talk about what those patterns reveal, because if we do not face the pattern, we are going to keep repeating it. And I am also here to pastor hearts, because a lot of people are bleeding quietly right now.
What You Are Feeling Is Valid
Some people are disillusioned. Some people are angry. Some people are embarrassed because they defended leaders and ministries and now they feel stupid. Some people are numb because they have watched too many things fall apart. Some people are terrified because they love the Holy Spirit and they do not want to lose what is real, but they do not know what to trust anymore.
If you are any of those people, I want you to hear me. You are not alone.
There is a difference between cynicism and discernment. Cynicism says nothing is real. Discernment says God is real, but not everything that claims to be God is actually God.
That is biblical.
"Do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God."
1 John 4:1Do not despise prophecies, but test everything, hold fast what is good.
Let two or three prophets speak, and let the others weigh what is said.
That is the Bible. That is not a suspicious mindset. That is obedience.
So if you are sorting right now, you are not the problem. The problem is when a movement trains people to fear testing, fear questions, and fear accountability. Because that is how empire protects itself. And that is not the Kingdom of God.
The Contrast Jesus Made
Jesus Himself made this clear. He did not leave it vague.
"You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. It shall not be so among you."
Matthew 20:25-26Jesus did not say, Try not to be like that. He said, It shall not be so among you.
Then He told us what it should look like.
"Whoever would be great among you must be your servant."
Matthew 20:26Then He grounded it in His own life.
"The Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many."
Matthew 20:28That is the Kingdom. The King serves. The King lays down His life. The King does not build an empire. The King builds people.
And when Jesus wanted to make that point unforgettable, He did something that still confronts every leader and every movement. He washed feet.
"If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another feet."
John 13:14That is not a cute story. That is a leadership model.
So when a leader becomes untouchable, unapproachable, and uncorrectable, something is already off, even if they preach the gospel. When a leader is surrounded by people who only affirm, only protect, and never challenge, something is already off. When a leader cannot be questioned without people being shamed, something is already off. When a leader gifting becomes the excuse for their lack of character, something is already off.
The Lie That Has Hurt Us Most
And that brings me to one of the biggest lies that has hurt charismatic culture. We have confused power with maturity. We have confused gifting with holiness. We have confused anointing with accountability.
Scripture never does that.
Jesus warned that people can minister in supernatural ways and still not belong to Him in obedience.
"Many will say to me on that day, Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name? And then will I declare to them, I never knew you."
Matthew 7:22-23That is terrifying. That is Jesus telling us that spiritual activity is not proof of intimacy, character, or truth.
Paul said something similar in a different way.
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal."
1 Corinthians 13:1He did not deny gifts. He did not mock gifts. He put them under the rule of love.
And then he defined love.
"Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant; it is not rude; it does not insist on its own way; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth."
1 Corinthians 13:4-6That last line matters so much in this moment. Love rejoices with the truth. Love does not protect darkness. Love does not silence victims. Love does not demand loyalty at the expense of conscience. Love does not call accountability persecution. Love does not treat questions like attacks. Love rejoices with the truth.
So if someone is speaking the truth carefully and responsibly, they are not automatically your enemy. They might be loving the Church in a way you have not practiced yet.
To Those Who Are Defending the Movement
I want to address this group gently, because I understand why you are doing it.
You love the movement. You love the presence of God. You have been helped by it. You have watched people meet Jesus in it. You have found community. You have watched God move, and you do not want to see it mocked, attacked, or dismantled. You are afraid that constant criticism will lead to a shutdown. You are afraid people will become cynical. You are afraid the Holy Spirit will be grieved. You are afraid the world will use this as a reason to reject Jesus.
I get the fear. I really do.
But I need to say this in love. Defending the movement is not the same as defending Jesus. Protecting a brand is not the same as protecting the flock. And attacking people who raise concerns does not create unity. It creates fear.
If your instinct is to protect leaders and ministries at all costs, I want you to ask yourself a harder question. Who are you protecting first?
Because God has always cared about that.
"The shepherds without knowledge have been feeding themselves and not the sheep. You have not strengthened the weak, healed the sick, bound up the injured, brought back the straying, or sought the lost. They have ruled with force and harshness."
Ezekiel 34:2-4Ezekiel 34 is not a gentle chapter. God confronts shepherds who protect themselves and neglect the sheep. Then God says He is against those shepherds, and He will rescue His sheep from them.
If that is how God responds to abusive shepherding, then we should be very careful about defending systems that keep producing harm.
Here is another hard truth. Some Christians call critics divisive because it makes it easier to avoid dealing with what the critics are pointing to. That is not discernment. That is avoidance. And avoidance is how cover up culture thrives.
I am not asking you to join a mob. I am not asking you to become cynical. I am asking you to stop treating every concern as an attack.
What Scripture Actually Says About Accountability
There is a verse that is very uncomfortable in a culture that wants to protect image.
"Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them."
Ephesians 5:11That is Scripture. That is not cancel culture. That is the Bible saying darkness should not be given a home in the Church.
And before someone says, Yes, but you should not bring things into the open, I want to answer that with Scripture too.
"If we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus cleanses us from all sin."
1 John 1:7Walking in the light is how the Church gets cleansed. It is how fellowship becomes real. It is how healing happens. Silence does not cleanse. Light does.
So to the defenders, I want to say this kindly. If you love the charismatic movement, you should want it purified. If you love the Holy Spirit, you should want truth. If you love Jesus, you should want His name honored by integrity, not protected by spin. And if you love the wounded, you should want them safe.
The Patterns We Have to Face
Now I want to be very concrete about what empire looks like, because empire can sound abstract unless we name what it looks like.
Celebrity Culture
Large charismatic ministries often function like influencer culture. The leader becomes the brand. The movement becomes tied to the personality. The church becomes identified with one face. The platform becomes the proof. This creates a dangerous pressure, because if the leader falls, the whole machine shakes. So the machine becomes designed to keep the leader from falling publicly, even if things are already unhealthy privately. That is how secrecy becomes normalized. That is how accountability becomes weak. That is how inner circles form. That is how leaders begin to protect leaders.
Money and Transparency
When ministries begin to operate like corporations, when fundraising becomes pressure, when transparency becomes resistance, when leaders live in obvious luxury while ordinary people are told to sacrifice more, the heart of people begins to break. And then people get told that questioning money is dishonor. That is not biblical. Paul modeled the opposite. He described taking precautions so no one could blame them in how they handled money, because they aimed to do what was honorable in the Lord sight and also in the sight of man. That is not secrecy. That is careful integrity.
Network Protection
This is where leaders keep building wider circles of endorsement. Conferences, podcasts, guest spots, shared platforms, mutual promotion. Everyone benefits from everyone. Then when a controversy hits, it becomes very hard for anyone inside the circle to speak honestly, because speaking honestly threatens the whole structure. So silence becomes strategic. And then victims pay the price.
Misusing Spiritual Language to Shut People Down
This shows up in phrases like touch not the anointed, you have a spirit of accusation, you are divisive, you are sowing discord, you are coming against God. If the only way a leader can maintain authority is by making people afraid to question them, that authority is already corrupted. Because biblical authority does not fear scrutiny. Paul confronted Peter. And Scripture gives clear instructions about how to handle accusations against leaders. It requires witnesses, and it also says that elders who persist in sin are to be rebuked in the presence of all, so that the rest may stand in fear. That does not mean we shame people. It means the Church cannot treat leadership sin like it is private when leadership sin harms the flock.
How Restoration Is Mishandled
Restoration is a beautiful word. But sometimes it is used to mean get the leader back on the platform as quickly as possible. That is not restoration. That is damage control. Forgiveness is real. It is central to the gospel. But forgiveness does not automatically mean someone is still qualified to lead. Leadership has qualifications in Scripture. Above reproach. Not domineering. Not a lover of money. These are not suggestions. These are standards. So if a leader disqualifies themselves, the Church does not honor Jesus by rushing them back into public ministry. The Church honors Jesus by protecting people and taking holiness seriously.
How Victims Are Treated
This is the one that breaks me the most, because it is the most opposite of Jesus. Victims should never have to fight to be believed. Victims should never be pressured into silence for unity. Victims should never be told to forgive quickly as a way of avoiding justice. Victims should never be treated like a threat to a ministry. Jesus consistently moved toward the wounded. He protected the vulnerable. He confronted those who used power to harm. A bruised reed he will not break. That is His heart. That is the standard.
What Reform Actually Looks Like
The charismatic movement does not need better slogans right now. It needs real reform. Words are not enough.
So what does concrete change mean?
It means leadership structures that are strong enough to correct leaders, not just celebrate them. It means financial transparency that is clear enough to build trust. It means independent handling of serious allegations, not internal management that protects the institution first. It means boards and oversight that are not built out of loyalty alone. It means reporting pathways that are safe for the vulnerable. It means prophetic cultures that welcome testing and weighing, because Scripture commands it. It means slower restoration that honors the seriousness of leadership sin. It means humility that does not just sound humble, but actually submits to the light.
I am not saying this is easy. I am saying it is necessary.
Because the world is watching. Not because we are trying to impress the world, but because our witness matters. People outside the Church can tell when something is being spun. They can tell when powerful people are protected. They can tell when there are double standards. And when they see it, they do not just lose trust in leaders. They can lose trust in Jesus, because they assume Jesus is like the leaders who represent Him.
That is why this matters so much.
If You Are Holding This Tension
If you love the charismatic movement and you also see what is wrong with parts of it, you are not alone in that tension. You do not have to pretend one or the other. You can love what is real and grieve what is counterfeit. You can celebrate the Holy Spirit and refuse to excuse spiritual abuse. You can honor the gifts and demand accountability. You can hold two truths at once without lying about either one.
To Those Who Are Speaking Out
I also want to speak to those who speak out, because there is a way to speak out that is fleshly and destructive, and I do not want that either.
If you are speaking, speak truthfully. Do not exaggerate. Do not spread rumors. Do not build your platform on outrage. Do not enjoy exposing people. That is not the heart of Christ.
But do not be shamed into silence when the issue is real.
"Faithful are the wounds of a friend."
Proverbs 27:6Sometimes truth wounds because it is cutting infection out, not because it is trying to harm.
Jesus Is Still King
Now I want to come back to the heart of this, because I do not want this to end as a critique. I want it to end where I am actually living, which is with Jesus.
I do not want to throw the baby out with the bathwater. I still believe the Holy Spirit gives gifts. I still believe God heals. I still believe prophecy is real. I still believe the presence of God is real. I still believe the Church should be alive and full of faith. I do not believe the answer to manipulation is shutting down the Spirit. I believe the answer is maturity.
Paul did not tell the Corinthians to stop being charismatic. He told them to grow up. He told them to pursue love and earnestly desire spiritual gifts. He also told them the gifts must build up the body, and everything must be done decently and in order. That is not control. That is care.
So when people feel disillusioned and start questioning everything, I do not want to mock them. I do not want to rush them. I do not want to guilt them. I want to pastor them toward Jesus.
If you have been hurt, you need to know Jesus is not asking you to pretend you are fine. Jesus does not break bruised reeds. He is gentle with the weak. He is tender with the wounded. He is patient with the confused. He does not shame people for needing time to heal.
And if you are angry, I understand that too. But I am asking God to keep anger from becoming a permanent home. Bitterness will not protect you. It will poison you. The goal is not to become numb. The goal is to become clear.
Where I Am Anchoring
Here is what I keep coming back to in my own heart. Jesus is still worthy even when leaders fail. The Holy Spirit is still true even when people use spiritual language dishonestly. The Kingdom of God is still advancing even when parts of the Church drift toward empire.
Jesus is not surprised by this moment. He is not wringing His hands. He is not panicking. He sees everything. He is the Head of the Church. He loves His bride more than any leader loves their ministry. He is able to cleanse what He loves.
There is a verse that comforts me in a strange way. The Lord is my shepherd. That is not just a comfort verse for hard days. It is a leadership statement. It means Jesus is the shepherd when human shepherds fail. It means He does not abandon sheep. It means He does not overlook wounds. It means He does not call abuse normal. It means He leads people in paths of righteousness for His name sake. His name sake matters. He will protect His name by purifying His Church, not by hiding what is true.
So my hope is not in a movement getting its reputation back. My hope is in Jesus.
My hope is that the Holy Spirit will do what only the Holy Spirit can do. Convict. Comfort. Expose. Heal. Lead. Restore.
Jesus said the Spirit would convict the world concerning sin and righteousness and judgment. Conviction is not condemnation. Conviction is God rescuing people from darkness. Jesus also called the Spirit the Helper. That means in a season like this, the Spirit does not only expose what is wrong. The Spirit helps the wounded breathe again. The Spirit helps believers rebuild faith on something solid. The Spirit helps people forgive without denying truth. The Spirit helps leaders repent in a way that actually changes.
Where I Am Landing
So if you are disillusioned, my encouragement is not, Try harder to trust people. My encouragement is, Anchor yourself in Jesus again.
Go back to the gospels. Look at Him. Watch how He treats the weak. Watch how He confronts hypocrisy. Watch how He refuses to build an empire. Watch how He walks toward the cross with steady love. Let that reshape what you think leadership should look like.
And if you are a leader, my encouragement is not, Protect your platform. My encouragement is, Fear God. Love people. Welcome the light. Build structures that protect the vulnerable. Let go of what needs to die. Hold your calling with trembling hands. Remember you will give an account.
And if you are one of the Christians who has been defending the movement by attacking those who speak up, I am asking you to stop and pray. Ask the Lord whether you have been defending the Holy Spirit, or defending an identity. Ask Him whether your desire for unity has become a demand for silence. Ask Him whether you have confused loyalty with love. Ask Him whether you have dismissed someone pain too quickly. Ask Him whether you have used spiritual phrases to avoid hard truth. Then repent where you need to repent.
Because Jesus does not need a public relations team. He needs a people who walk in truth.
I am not giving up on charismatic Christianity. I am not giving up on the gifts. I am not giving up on the Church. I am also not going to call empire Kingdom just because it uses Kingdom words.
Jesus is the King. His Kingdom is not built by domination. It is built by truth, humility, and sacrificial love.
That is where I am landing.
Not in denial. Not in cynicism. In Jesus.
Father, keep me honest. Keep me tender. Keep me brave. Give me discernment without pride. Give me love without naivety. Teach me to test what needs to be tested and hold fast what is good. Heal the wounded. Protect the vulnerable. Purify what needs purifying. Humble leaders who have become untouchable. Restore what is truly yours. And let your Church look like your Son again. In Jesus name, Amen.
With love and hope for your walk with Him,
Claire